Samuel Johnson’s life has been shaped by suicide. Photo: Love Your Sister Facebook
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Samuel Johnson with his sister, Connie. Photo: Love Your Sister Facebook

Samuel Johnson’s life has been shaped by suicide. Photo: Love Your Sister Facebook

Samuel Johnson’s life has been shaped by suicide. Photo: Love Your Sister Facebook

In a heart-rending new interview, actor Samuel Johnson has opened up about his former girlfriend’s suicide.

“I met and fell in love with a beautiful young lady called Lainie. The most beautiful creature in the world,” the 36-year-old actor told Nova radio’s Meshel Laurie’s Nitty Gritty Committee podcast.

“She was a bit too amazing though, and I couldn’t quite handle it. I kind of bailed on her and then she killed herself, which was charming, so considerate.”

In 2006, Johnson’s 20-year-old girlfriend Lainie Woodlands took her own life, in her home at Victoria’s Hepburn Springs.

Johnson, who rose to fame as a 21-year-old playing Evan on the hit show The Secret Life of Us, was already too familiar with suicide. His mother took her life before he was a year old and a close female friend had taken her life shortly before Lainie.

“I was probably already not doing that well but when my girlfriend [killed] herself, the night that I left her, sh– got pretty heavy,” he revealed.

He took a year off acting and drowned his sorrows in alcohol and drugs.

“I’m not angry with her at all. I’m just really sad. There’s a big gaping hole in my life that she used to occupy … and I miss her a lot,” he said in a 2007 interview.

In a separate interview with Australian Story that same year, he opened up further.

“The three key women in my life have left me. It floored me. You know, I mean, it’s still floored me. It’s just ruined me emotionally and I’m very sad now.”

By his late 20s, he finally turned to his father for advice.

“My mum killed herself when my dad left her, so, you know, there was an interesting continuity there,” said Johnson, whose father raised him and his two older sisters on his own.

“So I was able to ask my dad about that and see how he coped when mum did that to dad.”

Now, the actor, who has set up a breast cancer charity and written a book with his sister Connie, who is dying from the disease, says he does not blame himself.

“I was happy to be the trigger boy but I knew I wasn’t the cause,” he said of Lainie’s death.

“I’m OK with being the straw that broke the camel’s back and that’s how I can choose not to feel guilty about it, because ultimately there are a lot of other things that went into that act that she committed to.

“I think if I caused that sh– it might have been hard to forgive yourself.”

Fairfax Media

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